This morning I woke up early!!! Read some more of my book. Got sad and had a cry. Then I found my hands were together like in prayer. I rested in Gods presence and fell back to sleep 🙂
We had lunch at church today 🙂 My friend who got cancer earlier in the year was there 🙂 She looks good 🙂 even though shes having chemo. She did say it was the first time in ages that she does feel ok. LOVE her hair (wig). Makes me wish my hair would grow longer faster. So I can donate mine. My long term goal.
When I got home I looked though another bible based childrens book of mine and started gathering ideas for teaching from it sometime. I have about 2 more lessons from the book Im using at the mo. Weve decided Ill be teaching for the next 2 weeks. I LOVE how the kids are responding to the teaching. Boosts my confidence 🙂 🙂
The one Im using at the mo
The one I studied after church for future lesson plans
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For the last coupld of weeks I have been down sometimes excessilvly so
However I am begginning to feel like Im coming out of it at last
Last night we went out to dinner (2nd time in a week yahoo!!) at the pastors and his wifes house. There was another couple from the church there too. B13 went earlier and helped the pastor cook a yummy roast. After dinner we played cards 🙂
Today was a productive day
I picked up and delievered some more of my catologues. I picked up D3 and then came home and did the dishes and finished my housework 🙂Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( 8 so far )
Being invited to a social evening at church and there was pudding too YUM!!!
I had a nice “chat” with Jana on Yahoo Messenger 🙂Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( 2 so far )
I can be grateful today that I finished my home care (my part time job) delieveries I wasnt sure Id be able to and I had to:)
I took my youngest with me when I finished my delieveries after dinner and after we had dropped my oldest at sea scouts. It was pouring down we havent had rain for ages. He wore his new rain coat and pushed his pushchair around behind me. He was as happy as a duck is in the rain. He walked for ages and was a good boy 🙂 Then to cap this nice time together off we went home and had a nice warm bath together before picking My oldest up again.Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( 4 so far )
At the moment I am having trouble forgiving myself
In my 2nd abusive relationship I remember the older children hiding under the desk in my daughters room. They were cowering there hugging each other. When my partner at that stage got angry. I am having flashbacks of this a lot at the moment.
I feel guilty that I have been in these relationships where they havent felt or been treated right.
I need to forgive myself. Much easier said than done. I was talking to my awesome friend today (Tracey) I am so so blessed to have her in my life.
I have decided though talking to her to start writing each day something I can be grateful for and also one thing that made me smile or laugh.
Feel free to join me if you want to
I am grateful to my friend Tracey
for all the love and support she gives meT
its much easier having here there for me than it is going through this alone as I have done so in the past where even my neighbour didnt know what was happening
I thank God each day for her 🙂
Reading an email from my cousin in the UK made me smile
She is older than me and is full of wisdom
I often wish she was my mother
shes very special too – loving, supporting and encouraging me 🙂Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( 10 so far )